I will love myself anyway.

Updated: Jun 27

* Each Monday, or as required, apply a new affirmation to your daily practice*

Forgiveness, compassion, acceptance, trust, surrender and love.

Fear, anxiety, pain, instability, regret, guilt, anger, resistance, and hatred.

All emotions, feelings, thoughts, and experiences I have worked through, am working with or seek to. Perhaps you too?

There was a time that I didn’t like who I was, I didn’t feel as though I was a part of anything, I felt unseen, unheard, and unworthy. Although, I didn’t know all of this.

I hated others, lacked empathy, didn’t look beyond myself, and became laser focussed on what I thought would bring me success, bring me a sense of belonging; of purpose; of being loved. Most of all, I hated myself. Although, I didn’t know all of this.

I unconsciously repeated the same acts, the same behaviours, recycled the same mindset, the same emotions and vibrated at the same frequency. Patterns of the past, lessons unlearned reappeared time and time again. I wasn’t looking for them, I wasn’t hearing them, I wasn’t listening to them. Lessons that once learned would set me free. Although, I didn’t know all of this.

There was a time where I was attached to and identified with my past experiences, my past self. I was living through the same lens, despite trying to move forward. Like I was looking through a telescope, yet my legs were trying to carry me away, to move me beyond. Although, I didn’t know all of this.

There was a time that I was deeply ashamed of who I had been with the awareness of who I had become. Once I had shed light on my shadows, the impact, the power, the truth of the reality that had once been was almost to intense to bear. I wasn’t able to hold space for myself, to stand strong in who I had become and who I was becoming. I wasn’t able to forgive, I wasn’t able to love. Although, I didn’t know all of this.

There was a time when resistance became my middle name, resistance ignited by fear, fear of the unknown; of failure; of receiving all of the things that my heart desired. Most of all, resistance to love. Resistance illuminated by my efforts to move forward, to do the work, to connect with and understand the true Self. This I did now know.

As my will to move forward, to see, to acknowledge, to overcome and to let go grew stronger I felt the resistance grow to equal it. Like I was building a brick wall and at the same time, as fast as I could build it trying to knock it down until one day I couldn’t hold it anymore. I couldn’t continue to build the wall. I couldn’t keep fighting. I couldn’t resist. There was nothing left I could do to push back. I was forced to surrender. To surrender to the will of my heart. The most truest and deepest desires of the Self.

And in light of the crumbling of my resistance to all of the things I once didn’t know, and all of the things I now did know, I chose to love myself anyway.

And as I move forward on this journey; one foot in front of the other, to shed light on the dark, to bring the unconscious into consciousness, to unveil the unknown and to face my shadows, I will continue to love myself in spite of it all.

Because… after all love does conquer all.

It is the essence of what was, what is and what will be. It is you and I, us both.

It is what we truly are.

It is our true nature, our essential and all-knowing Self.

So, with reason and without, I will love myself anyway.

And it is my hope for you that you are able to do the same.

I will love myself anyway.

Suggested daily practice:

Each and every morning -

  1. Wash your face

  2. Brush your teeth

  3. Drink a glass of water (filtered is preferable)

  4. Take a comfortable seat (maybe put on a salt lamp, some soft music or light some incense if you like)

  5. Take three deep belly breaths (Raja pranayama)

  6. Have your affirmation written out before you and begin to silently repeat your it in your minds eye

  7. When you feel ready, close you eyes and continue to repeat the affirmation

  8. Feel what it feels like in your body to fully surrender to your affirmation

  9. Notice these feelings, let yourself truly experience them

  10. Say It. Feel It. Live It - continue for a minimum of 5 minutes and when you are ready begin your beautiful day!

Love & kindness,

xx Paige

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